IC INFORMATION Characters Name: Parsee Mizuhashi. Age: Hundreds of years old, looks to be in her early 20's at most. Canon: Touhou Project. Canon Point: Post-Subterranean Animism. Species: Youkai. Gender: Female. Orientation: Nothing in canon indicates Parsee's sexuality one way or another. I'm going with no preference because I interpret her self-loathing as being so intense that she would view anyone taking a romantic/sexual interest in her as a miracle. (To say nothing of how she's super old by human standards, a species she doesn't even belong to, both of which could also be factors in such an indifferent mindset toward gender preferences.)
When meeting Parsee for the first time, odds are that she'll seem normal enough for the first ten minutes, and maybe even a bit cheerful if caught on a good day. But this is an illusion that's no more resilient than tissue paper and even easier to shred apart, because Parsee is a seething mess of jealousy and resentful hatred.
Centuries upon centuries of being despised have whittled Parsee's self-esteem down to rock bottom and beyond. She believes that she has no good qualities, and thus is unwanted everywhere she goes. This is a self-fulfilling prophecy, however, since centuries upon centuries of being poisoned by envious feelings have turned Parsee into an unhappy, spiteful person that's sharp around the edges and not much inclined toward sensitivity or good manners. She actively tries to keep others at arm's length, either by hiding away somewhere to sulk or turning the full force of her jealous, resentful personality upon those that don't keep their distance. Yet while Parsee seems bound and determined to wallow in bitter loneliness, that's honestly the last thing she wants. She aches for praise and positive attention, constantly torn between reaching out for that acknowledgement and twisting away from it. Despite having a dubious grasp on sanity at times, she fully understands the consequences of her actions and constantly struggles to be content with the price she pays for her prickly, self-defeating behavior.
But by this point, Parsee doesn't know how to behave any other way. The dim and hateful view that she takes toward her own existence doesn't allow for anything other than what she's always done; it's all she remembers, the only thing she knows. So Parsee continues her attempts to validate the sour reputation that history has saddled her with, to seek out isolation and notoriety, and to feel only satisfaction at the inevitable results of such misguided, self-destructive efforts. Yet for all that she tries so very hard to be an irredeemable jerk, Parsee usually falls short of being genuinely cruel. The true focus of her vitriol begins and ends with herself. And at the end of the day, what Parsee always falls back on is singling out the positive qualities she sees in other people and professing how jealous those traits make her feel. She often attempts to make these outbursts sound like insults, but they're also the only way that Parsee can semi-comfortably express admiration or respect.
She's not a horrible or worthless person, whatever she tells herself and tries to believe, and maybe she can grow to accept and work toward a better sense of self-worth if someone broke through her (numerous and stubborn) defenses.
Abilities: Her official power is the ability to "manipulate jealousy", which means just what it says: she can control the jealousy in anyone's heart on a whim, to intensify or lessen as she sees fit. She can fly, and also use danmaku (concussive lasers) with these spellcards! Other: Nothing I can think of.
SAMPLES First Person: [Parsee is already glaring when the feed clicks on, her gaze resentful and yet....something else, an undecipherable cross between hunger and longing. Her narrowed eyes would normally glow with a strange fire, but here they're simply an unusually vibrant shade of green.]
This is the outside world, I guess. Hmph, or some version of it, anyway. [A long, peevish moment that's somehow also expectant, as if Parsee was waiting for the other shoe to drop.] So many humans walking around here.....they all look so happy. Is it because they get to live in a swanky place like this, with sunlight and clean water? And nice houses, and families, and...
[Her teeth grind together.]
It really makes me jealous! I'm so jealous, I think I'm gonna puke!
Third Person:
There's no words, in any language, that can properly describe the emotion that twists through Parsee when the full epiphany of what she's lost breaks over her. In some small part, the feeling is one of relief: a great and terrible weight has been plucked from her shoulders. The heavy pressure within her chest, tight like the embrace of a possessive lover desperate to be closer still, has lessened. (She takes this moment to breathe in, then out, and dimly marvels at how easy such a simple thing has become.) A reprieve she's convinced that she doesn't deserve - and surely, definitely, could not be worthy of by any stretch of anyone's imagination - but has been afforded regardless.
Yet the feeling is also anger, and fear, and the sense of being set adrift in the most vulnerable of ways. To have her ability to manipulate jealousy be stripped away so suddenly and unceremoniously is, for Parsee, the same thing has waking up to find that someone had changed the color of her eyes from green to the milky-white hue of a blind person while she slept. That power is just as much a part of the twisted, tattered fabric of her identity as a physical attribute, after all; bitter, resentful jealousy underscores her existence at every turn, fills the lonely emptiness that haunts her. (If just enough to distract her from what she really wants and cannot allow herself to have, if just enough to get by.) Without that ability to warp others as she has been warped, to have them be consumed by the same hateful longing that has long since consumed her, then who is she? There's no bridge to oversee here - no familiar role for her to shoulder, no place where she can at least pretend to belong.
Parsee doesn't know. She can barely stand to think about it, all the paths that have suddenly opened up before her that lead to unknown, uncharted places. It takes every ounce of effort to only narrow her eyes and twist her mouth into a frown when her housemates draw nearer. Already she feels jealous of them.....simply because they're not pitiful like her.
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PARSEE MIZUHASHI | TOUHOU PROJECT | RESERVED [1/?]
Player: Jake.
Age: 24.
Personal Journal:
Contact Info: skuldafn [aim] | khajiit [plurk]
Other Characters: N/A.
PARSEE MIZUHASHI | TOUHOU PROJECT | RESERVED [2/?]
Characters Name: Parsee Mizuhashi.
Age: Hundreds of years old, looks to be in her early 20's at most.
Canon: Touhou Project.
Canon Point: Post-Subterranean Animism.
Species: Youkai.
Gender: Female.
Orientation: Nothing in canon indicates Parsee's sexuality one way or another. I'm going with no preference because I interpret her self-loathing as being so intense that she would view anyone taking a romantic/sexual interest in her as a miracle. (To say nothing of how she's super old by human standards, a species she doesn't even belong to, both of which could also be factors in such an indifferent mindset toward gender preferences.)
History: Here!
Appearance:
PARSEE MIZUHASHI | TOUHOU PROJECT | RESERVED [3/?]
Abilities: Her official power is the ability to "manipulate jealousy", which means just what it says: she can control the jealousy in anyone's heart on a whim, to intensify or lessen as she sees fit. She can fly, and also use danmaku (concussive lasers) with these spellcards!
Other: Nothing I can think of.
PARSEE MIZUHASHI | TOUHOU PROJECT | RESERVED [4/4]
First Person: [Parsee is already glaring when the feed clicks on, her gaze resentful and yet....something else, an undecipherable cross between hunger and longing. Her narrowed eyes would normally glow with a strange fire, but here they're simply an unusually vibrant shade of green.]
This is the outside world, I guess. Hmph, or some version of it, anyway. [A long, peevish moment that's somehow also expectant, as if Parsee was waiting for the other shoe to drop.] So many humans walking around here.....they all look so happy. Is it because they get to live in a swanky place like this, with sunlight and clean water? And nice houses, and families, and...
[Her teeth grind together.]
It really makes me jealous! I'm so jealous, I think I'm gonna puke!
Third Person:
OTHER
Housing Request?: Nope!
Did you read the rules and FAQ?: YEAH BRAH
Would you like your application to be unscreened?: Y.
Accepted
Congrats, your application has been accepted! Your character is now living at 1458 in Holly Heights, with a spouse slot. In order to get the ball rolling, here's what you need to do:
I hope you enjoy your stay here!