OOC INFORMATION Player: Chizu Age: 18 Personal Journal:mrr Contact Info: pichizu @ gmail, bioluminescence @ plurk, impartial nonhuman @ aim Other Characters: Yayoi Nakayama commonplaced and Thorfinn karlsefni
IC INFORMATION Characters Name: Lily Rammsteiner Age: 14-15 is her physical appearance, but she's much younger than that chronologically. Canon: DOGS: Bullets & Carnage Canon Point: Chapter 54 Species: Genetically modified human! Gender: Girl, feminine. Orientation: She doesn't canonically have any interest in men or women alike, because haha she was too busy ripping things apart. BUT I would put her at OKAY with either husband or wife.
History:CAN I USE THIS? It's a wikia. . . . . Appearance: She's small, petite with blonde hair and blue eyes. Here is a good picture of her, although there is blood. Personality:
The first time we see Lily Rammsteiner, she's bright—a little ditzy, a little air-headed and a little slow. If she were a shounen character, she'd be the cheer of the group, the one who smiles even in the face of hardship.
However, she's not. Moreover, she doesn't have the sort of willpower that shounen characters all typically have - no, Lily is a coward and Lily is weak; that's why, when the little voice that tells her to let go of everything and do what she'd like best, do what pleases her, do what's fun (some might call this voice the devil; Lily knows it's herself), she lets go. To be fair, her situation is a pretty shitty one - she was reared up as a child of destruction, a living weapon and forced to fight day in and day out. As a result, Lily's initial personality - one of happiness and sunshine - is tainted, darkened by the fear that haunts her life, the fear of dying, the fear of not being good enough, the fear of being discarded. Losing herself becomes her coping mechanism, but at the same time, losing herself becomes something she fears, too - because she doesn't remember, everything becomes black and she wakes up again with blood on her hands that might be her brother's. Lily recognizes it's not something she should do - she doesn't want to hurt her siblings! But it's something that she finds herself slipping into, over and over again, and it's so much easier for her to lose control, because it makes her feel better. Fear rules over her life, and Lily just wants it all to stop.
Nevertheless, she does try to keep herself from succumbing to the voice - but she's largely dependent on Heine to bring her back from her rampage. In fact, she's largely reliant on Heine - and her siblings - for her mental and emotional support. Without Heine, Lily becomes frantic and panicked - he's her one, faithful comfort. When she's scared, he comforts her, and when she goes berserk, he stops her - and when she can't be brought back, he's the only one who can kill her. Although Lily doesn't consciously acknowledge this fact, perhaps it's another reason why she keeps him so close - because she doesn't want to hurt her family, her siblings and her comrades, the only people she's known her life, and she knows Heine is the single person who could best stop her from killing them.
At least, there's one other coping method that Lily goes to - not that it works very well. She becomes despondent, zoning out of the conversation and retreating to the depths of her so that she doesn't have to think about her fear. This, however, doesn't work when there's a current, real danger - when there is, she's the fastest person to go berserk and start killing. Thankfully, in Holly Heights, a large part of her fear will disappear - not only will she not be without the voice that comes with her collar and her invulnerability, but she's also no longer subject to experiments and with the fear of certain, inevitable death in the laboratory. That being said, that doesn't mean she won't be scared of anything at all - having been locked up underground for all her life, Lily doesn't have any basic concept of any natural thing - not the sky, not clouds, not even the sun or the grass or flowers or freedom. She won't know what to do with herself when she doesn't have a schedule, when she doesn't have any regulated meals or experiments, when she can make her own decisions. It's scary, and it's completely unlike her canon at all - but, the good thing is that she doesn't have the voice at all. In other words, her first coping method is completely out of the question - there's no voice to tell her to let go have fun, much less any strength to go berserk with.
Also thankfully, there's nothing to be scared of in Holly Heights! Because of its slice-of-life setting, and because violence above the comedic sort seem to be scarce, if not completely out of the picture, Lily will ( although still frightened and fearful of everything ) be able to come out of her traumatized shell and return to her cheery self. She'll learn to interact with people - but a problem Lily might face while in game is extreme jealousy. Being so tightly knit with her family in canon, and being around them all the time, Lily is needy - especially of Heine's attention - and being apart from him, being shown that Heine is growing without her, might prove to become a problem. She is, after all, just a human girl - and her psyche is fragile already, to the point that she's incredibly dependent on Heine, and to an extent, Giovanni. However, at least for Giovanni, she'll want his attention, want to be around him, but not his comfort - she doesn't rely on Giovanni so much as they mutually rely on each other, clinging to each other and mutually co-dependent.
Besides that, she's naturally a ditzy and all-smiles girl with a vast imagination - although she's become severely crippled by her upbringing, Lily is capable of change, and with the right nurturing, Lily can return to the bright and cheery girl that she was when she first woke up - it just takes time. However, as I've said before, she doesn't have great willpower - if she doesn't develop inner strength in Holly Heights, her regain will be an inevitable backslide all the way to her canonical personality, being scared of everything and unable to smile without trembling. Hopefully, though, this will be developed in time for her to keep from completely somersaulting and backflipping into auto-berserking when she gets scared.
Abilities: As a genetically modified human, Lily is capable of nearly-instant regeneration, as well as fighting - with her bare hands, or with a gun that she's also capable of using. However, when she fights it is after she's succumbed to the little voice in her head, so she is unable to control herself, effectively going berserk and killing everything - both enemies and friends. But she's really good at killing!!!!!!! Other: Lily's collar is essentially part of her spine and her nervous system, so I'm wondering if her entire collar will be gone or if it will just be de-activated!
". . . that will be all. Whoever does the best, I will love with all my heart."
That's the last thing she hears. It's the same as usual, the same as every day - after this intercom announcement, the gates will open and the older models will come in, and Lily - everyone - will be subjected to ripping them apart, whether they too are ripped apart in the process or not.
She doesn't want to. As Lily stares, unable to look away from the door that leads to the impending danger, she feels it—as usual, the cold, ice-grip fear in her heart that makes it hard to breathe, makes her hands tremble as they cling to her clothes, clings to her chest, in some futile effort to still her tooquicklybeating heart. Stop, stop, she thinks to herself, trying to will the creeping sensation away.
She knows what will happen next. What happens next is that, when the doors open, she will see her next victims, and then she will see nothing. When she wakes up next, she will see red staining her hands, and no matter how hard she scrubs at her skin, the blood will never truly go away, and someone else will have twisted arms - or otherwise, some other damage. And it will be the fault of no one but her own.
No. She doesn't want it. If she can help it, she won't. This time, this time, she won't listen.
it's so scary, it's so scary it's true, don't want to do this anymore, she doesn't want to kill day in and day out but she has to be strong or she'll be in for a world of hurt, can't do anything it's useless it's hopeless, but she has to try, she has to keep herself sane, keep herself together, keep herself human—
why? why, why resist it? it feels so good doesn't it? lily, lily, aren't you scared?
I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm so scared right now, she knows it to be true, she can't stop the fear. But she doesn't want it - no, no, she has to stop it, please, no, please please please no don't say another word, little demon voice of mine—
just let go. just let go, it'll be alright. let go, have some fun. do what you think is fun.
As tense as she is now, Lily can't help but relax at the idea, the false promise that "it'll be alright". She knows it. She knows it won't be, she knows she won't remember anything that happened, but—
Just this once. . . .
The last thing Lily sees is the door moving up, the last thing she hears is the creaking and squeaking of metal, as well as the thunderous steps of giant beasts - her next victims.
Then, she feels nothing. Sees nothing. It's a vast, deep darkness that cloaks her in pitch black. In the distance, she can hear herself laugh, hear the squelching as her arm rips through something—but no, don't think about it anymore. Don't think about it, rest your head. Just do what's fun.
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Player: Chizu
Age: 18
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Contact Info: pichizu @ gmail, bioluminescence @ plurk, impartial nonhuman @ aim
Other Characters: Yayoi Nakayama
IC INFORMATION
Characters Name: Lily Rammsteiner
Age: 14-15 is her physical appearance, but she's much younger than that chronologically.
Canon: DOGS: Bullets & Carnage
Canon Point: Chapter 54
Species: Genetically modified human!
Gender: Girl, feminine.
Orientation: She doesn't canonically have any interest in men or women alike, because haha she was too busy ripping things apart. BUT I would put her at OKAY with either husband or wife.
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Appearance: She's small, petite with blonde hair and blue eyes. Here is a good picture of her, although there is blood.
Personality:
Abilities: As a genetically modified human, Lily is capable of nearly-instant regeneration, as well as fighting - with her bare hands, or with a gun that she's also capable of using. However, when she fights it is after she's succumbed to the little voice in her head, so she is unable to control herself, effectively going berserk and killing everything - both enemies and friends. But she's really good at killing!!!!!!!
Other: Lily's collar is essentially part of her spine and her nervous system, so I'm wondering if her entire collar will be gone or if it will just be de-activated!
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First Person: From the test drive!
Third Person:
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Housing Request?: 1470, please!
Did you read the rules and FAQ?: Yes!
Would you like your application to be unscreened?: Y.
Accepted
Congrats, your application has been accepted! Your character is now living at 1470 in Holly Heights, with a child slot. In order to get the ball rolling, here's what you need to do:
I hope you enjoy your stay here!